a happy day. contentment defined. thank u.

my day is spent this way: a bouquet (2 dozens) of peach flowers in the morning, courtesy of my superior; a lunch treat at Max's resto; a kikay bag from colleagues; a bday cake and a gallon of ice cream in the afternoon.  what lies for this night is yet to come and might be blogged tomorrow. (still afternoon here, fyi)

one year has passed again and only God knows how many years await me still. time passes by so quickly and along it comes the many changes. a new job. a new environment. a new set of friends. an important lesson learned the hard way. a new perspective in life. a new yet still the ole me.

if there are gains, there are losses too. a someone who got away. a wrong choice. a wrong picking. a wrong move. but everything happens for a reason and all these are allowed by the heaven. for my own good.

thank You Lord for all the blessings. for the answered prayers and even for the unanswered ones. You really know what's best for me and im glad for it and i just don't know how to thank you so much. words just diminish how grateful i am for having You in my life. i just wish........I COULD SHARE YOU TO ALL I GET IN TOUCH WITH. with no hesitations. with no fears. i wish i could be that bold about You.

i wish and i'll strive.

1) to see.

2) to hear.

3) to touch.

4) to feel.

5) to laugh.

6) to love.

7) to be loved.

i was having a date with my dad (yes, with my dad) just last saturday. we were eating in this eat-all-you-can resto and while my dad was serving himself and was busy filling up his dish, while me left on our table, a foreigner (an american i assume) in his early 50s approached our table and dropped this line:  "my friend likes you very much."  and he pointed to his friend, probably in his early 30s with pakistan-ish looks, and left.

i was a bit shocked of course, and flattered at the same time. all i muttered was "really?" just as the american left. had he stayed a sec longer, i would've said "go tell my dad who's over right there. he'll be very proud of me (im sure)."

it's my first time for a foreigner to notice me dude! so i was like in "wow. im at a higher level now"-ish sort of mentality. haha!

i like the way he speaks my name. so gentle. i felt like a baby in a cradle. but then agen, he really speaks gently naman e, with or without saying my name. soft-spoken tlga sya. so  maybe im just seeing things that are not really there. people are like that so this is just normal. pag crush mo isang tao, simpleng bagay lng may malalim na kahulugan na sa yo. khit ang totoo e wla lng tlga un at ganun din naman sya sa iba. crush mo nga kse. so u add and/or minus (but more on adding) figments of your imagination in all your encounters with him/her.

hay crush. 26 nako at crush pa rin ang binabanggit ko. grow up pare!

pero ganun tlga eh. if something makes u smile, y wud u hinder that one thing? so long as you're not hurting someone along the way. so long as you're not stepping across the boundaries. so long as you know how to be off-limits with him. kung di lng sana sya "off-limit" maybe i would brave all the risks. pero di ganun ung sitwasyon. so hanggang crush crush nga lng tlga. simpleng his and hellos, nods and smiles and exchange of little conversations where half of it is even work-related. oh well, ganun man kasimple ung mga un, nakakadagdag pa rin ng malaki sa kulay ng buhay. nakakapagpasaya. nakakapagpangiti. at oo, nakakapagpakilig.

kung pwede nga lng sanang maging permanente na lng sya sa buhay ko. para permanente na ung ngiti at para wla ng bawal-bawal. kaya nga lng, as i've said, hinde ganun ung equation eh, kase isa syang "constant factor" sa isang parte ng equation na un. nagkataon lng na hinde sa parte ko. and ang "cannot be, borrow one from two" e di rin applicable pare.

so eto. hanggang secret crush ka lng. kaya manghinayang ka! hahaha.